Enigmatic

After offering my prayer I should feel proud. I have remembered my Lord in the busy schedule of homework, social networking, entertainment, community service, Sat's preparation & College applications. Yes, i have every right to feel proud because i have escaped from all the plans devised by 'shaitan' for me. It also asks me to deride other 'bay namazis' as they are agents of Shaitan, and their destination is Hell, and mine is Paradise. There should be a spiritual exalt as well.
But i'm baffled. Nothing as such happens to me after worshiping my GOD. I have no idea what happens after saying "ALLAH HO AKBAR", may be i'm totally submitted to HIM. I start feeling of being convicted in HIS court. I'm afraid for committing 'adultery' since i have 'worshiped' objects other than HIM. I put my faith in people, worldly means, capabilities, rights, law, and even ignored HIS calls for meeting. The 'guilty' is sweating because the veil is lifted. I can see the hand fate dealt with those who had gone astray. I can feel the scorching heat of Hell, conflagration, my lips are swelling to the feet, and  branded shoes & wrists bands being replaced by those made from fire. But then  I hear an 'appeasing' remark,"sirat e mustaqeem"O ALLAH show us the right way" then an unseen light illuminates my way, the Light penetrates into my body. It purified my Black soul.
The person who had entered the mosque in haughtiness that 'he is the most virtuous person living on the face of earth'. He is exculpated by THE MERCY of ALLAH. HE forgets as well as i forget, but the difference is that HE forgets my sins, but I forget HIS blessings.
Turn to ALLAH. HE is waiting to forgive you. However, make sure that you are on time because the office of forgiveness is closed for dead people.